I reject your mom

panksters @ 2010-01-02T23:09:00

2010-01-03T04:09:13Z

Dear Livejournal,
A few weeks ago, I worked up the courage to awkwardly tell the guy I'm head over heels for how I feel about him. Lucky me, he feels the same way, but is worried about dating so soon after breakups and wants to be cautious.

Guess who has a new girlfriend? Guess who doesn't know why I'm mad?

Comics part 1

2009-12-18T03:00:19Z

Deadpool: Merc With a Mouth #6: Still funny, still wandering around with Headpool. Even though Deadpool will be traversing the Marvel Zombie universe (I hope?), the funniest part of the comic was actually the recap. And I can never look at Marvel Zombies again after what they did to Spider-man.

Tiny Titans #23: THIS IS SO CUTE. If you don't read any comics at all, you should at least read Tiny Titans. Batman just... and Tim and Jason dressed up as baby Robins... and they glued bunnies to the ceiling HJSDGHBHDYGDSHR it's like adorable crack that doesn't suck.

Deadpool #18: Usually I like Merc With a Mouth better than the regular Deadpool title, but nooooot thiiiis weeeeeek. They've been playing up the funny, hilariously silly part of Deadpool, so it's nice to take a break and see the guy actually be good at something. He saved the X Men's reputation AND the day, just by being a smart cookie with major skills. And Cyclops looked like a cock, which is nice.

Justice League: Cry for Justice #1: NGL, I only bought this because the art is kind of extremely cool. Except... um... he makes Wonder Woman's bottom half like, really skinny? Like I think that would ride up into her vag and be horrible :( BUT OLLIE CALLING HAL "BABY" AND WANTING TO RUN OFF AND FIGHT CRIME WITH HIM? YES. I AM FOR THIS. rofl they're so funny together.

Ollie: "Remember back int the day... when I lost my millions and became liberal?" <-- I wish this would happen to more people.

Justice League: CFJ #2: Hal: I have a confession to make.
Ollie: If it involves the Huntress, Lady Blackhawk, and a bottle of Grappa, Dinah already told me. And all I have to say is "Well played, sir".

Oo! And DC has a legit gay hero who isn't a lesbian? I did not even know that. Now I am in the loop.

Hal: "I know this is Gotham, where it's law apparenly that people conduct every important conversation on a rooftop" lol Hal. Why aren't you cool in the normal GL series? :(

Anyway, this series is super good so far. There's a new Captain Marvel? Jesus Hussein I'm out of it. Anyway, the current Super Awesome Team consists of Hal, Green Arrow, Supergirl, the Atom, Flash (Jay), Congorilla/Bill, and the old Starman. Need more.

I'll do the rest when I finish watching Generation Kill.

panksters @ 2009-12-16T01:13:00

2009-12-16T06:13:11Z

I AM REALLY HAPPY TO LIVE IN A PLACE WHERE PEOPLE WHO HATE GAYS ARE CONSIDERED WEIRD AND STUPID.

panksters @ 2009-12-04T21:26:00

2009-12-05T02:26:41Z

Guy Garnder became a red lantern, and... I do not own this issue. SOMEONE EXPLAIN THIS TO ME. WHAT DID I MISS? WHY?

panksters @ 2009-11-29T20:27:00

2009-11-30T01:27:34Z

It's sad that the only official groups and organizations related to the Asatru are also linked to racism and nazis. I think I'll stick with being a solo worshipper for the time being. This doesn't mean I'm having Blot by myself though. Maybe Bobby and I can cook a bird, invite some friends over, and pour some beer on the ground.

My runes are being awfully fickle lately. I keep getting amazing readings with one really, really nasty card tucked in there. My favored rune, Tyr, showed up for the first time ever, but not in an especially good way. Oh well, it is what it is.

polyamory vent shut up

2009-11-23T06:03:49Z

I'm just gonna use this hurr journal to write about something that turned out to be pretty bangin and big in my life. JESUS. What haell no it's not Jesus. He probably wasn't that tall. Anyway, I'm no fancy writer with them fancy words and the english and siiiich, so yeah. I'm not writing a masterpiece.

Anyway, I tend to get a lot of confusion, disapproval, and all around crap/eye rolling due to my feelings on relationships. Namely, I don't really want to get married, and I have absolutely no issue with having multiple partners within a relationship. Now normally, if people were decent and minded their own damn business, this wouldn't be an issue whatsoever. But since I go on the forums and am a little vocal about my opinions, I tend to get some questions.

This alays gets brought up: Polyamory is just an excuse for people who can't control themselves. People who argue this are only looking at it from one side. This is implying that Partner A goes out and fucks everyone they want, but gets super pissed when Partner B does it. The idea is that both Partners A and B can have other partners in their lives without jealousy between the two. If it were just regular folk who can't control their sexual urges, you'd think they'd get protective or pissed after seeing their partner with someone else. But eh... it doesn't work that way. You don't GET jealous, not because you can't control your junk, but because sex isn't purely romantic to you, or you don't believe that romantic love should be confined to two people. It's not about having to fuck everything that moves, it's about trusting and understanding your partner. Wanting to share your love and affection with whomever you want, and not being bound by retarded social standards about how people should date and fuck.

Which brings us to our next one. How can you not be jealous? How can you eat zuccini? How can you watch Gilmore Girls? How can you look in the mirror and think that haircut looks good? How can you fail at making toast? It's just fucking toast! The fact that I don't have an answer for this one tends to "prove" that polyamory is just for hoes (and tricks) to some people. But I don't know, I just... don't mind lol. I saw my partner Bobby leave the bar with a girl I went to high school with, and I gave him a thumbs up. Good for him, getting some action! She's an awesome gal too, hooray! It just doesn't bother me. I have no idea why.

Polyamorous people are more likely to get pregnant or get STDs. Dude, it's not like I'm fucking the entire Brady Bunch and poking holes in all the condoms. I have only ever had sex with 3 people in my entire life, and I was very, very close to all of them. I can't even imagine taking off my pants in front of a stranger, because I have extremely dry leg skins that are horrible and scarring for me even though I've been told they're not that bad @_@. But somehow, people think that because I have no problem fucking people I'm pals with, I must be the town bicycle. Not true, folks! I STILL don't have sex with anyone I'm not 100% comfortable around. It's just not my scene, sorry. As for the STDs thing, really? If I completely trust the people I have sex with, and they say they don't have disease ridden junks, then I'm all set.

They're just dating/fucking more than one person because they're afraid of being alone. They're gonna end up dumping whichever one will give them less for the one who gives them more. I know a guy who got into a polyamorous relatonship, and it failed miserable as fuck. See, he wasn't really into the idea. He DID get jealous when his galpal was out and about with other dudes. He assumes that ALL people in these relationships get jealous, because he can't see how someone wouldn't. When he got dumped for the other person in the relationship, he assumed that all people in poly relationships are just in them because they can't make a decision and don't like being alone. So he argues against it completely based on his personal experience. People don't seem to understand that not everyone is them. Not everyone acts the same way they do. It's hard to tell someone that when their fingers are in their ears.

Anyway, rant over I guess. I'm slowly dealing with someone who is very into me, but really isn't into the kind of relationships I'm into. He asked me about a lot of it, but he doesn't get it. He probably never will, and that's not a bad thing. It's just a little frustrating...

Tl;dr pank likes dicks and boobies

panksters @ 2009-11-22T02:46:00

2009-11-22T07:46:20Z

Sooo.... I made out with my best friend, and Bobby left to fuck a girl my buddy calls "Jew Nose". lol awesome band night at the bar.

panksters @ 2009-11-16T23:37:00

2009-11-17T04:37:45Z

Deez are all my favorites. I need to save them so I can set my computer on fire without worry.

some vista tips
moar
Gemstone library
Free cmputer shit
That thing that lets you put highlighted text behind pictures
Search Shakespeare
Wheel of the year
cougars
Your birthday's tree
Mythology encyclopedia
hdr photos
free books
forest meditation room, my best link
write your name in elvish
comic panels
irish dictionary
godchecker
plugs
moar
norse shit
gifs
colors
shirts
gardening veggies
moar religion
endangered dags

panksters @ 2009-11-04T15:46:00

2009-11-04T20:46:54Z

Spam me with cute cupcakes

panksters @ 2009-11-01T14:21:00

2009-11-01T19:21:51Z

Sup?

panksters @ 2009-10-22T23:26:00

2009-10-23T03:27:15Z

"I am able to orgasm simply by smelling my fiancee's pillow while she is gone,"

AHHHHHHHHHHH, RUN FIANCEE, RUN! DON'T MARRY HIM!

context is for the weak

2009-10-16T05:18:14Z

I love you because you
smell like my genitals which smell like graham
crackers

panksters @ 2009-10-12T15:05:00

2009-10-12T19:10:45Z

I have had three dreams about my ex boyfriend since wednesday, all of them clouded with bitterness, desperation, and hostility. Sigh.

music post

2009-10-09T02:15:42Z

I have to make a weird kind of transfer from one computer to another for songs I lost, so this is just a music dump for me. TAKE AWAY THOUGH.

!!! - Yadnus
!!! - Yadnus

Herman Dune - Suburbs With You

Patrick Wolfe - The Libertine

Trio Mocoto - Nao Se Por Que

Brian Eno - In Dark Trees

DJ Shadow - Can't Go Home Again

Flogging Molly - Cruel Mistress

Helen & Dick Bouchard - Nobody Wears a Frown in Tweakertown

Five Iron Frenzy - My Evil Plan to Save the World

Kenneth Woods - La Mer and Galanta Dance Excerpts

Larry Groupe - The Portait Room

Alak - Dragon Roost Theme

The Reduced Shakespeare Company - In the Beginning Blues

Deuter - White

Bossacucanova - Essa Moca Ta Diferente

M - Fighter

Alak - Gerudo Valley

E-Type - I'm Flying

Muppet Treasure Island - Professional Pirate

Arvo Part - The Hanging Man

Bruno Coulais - L'Arrivee ecole

Ted Leo and the Pharmacists - Counting Down the Hours

Prozzak - Be As

Jay Z - Big Pimpin'

DJ Food - Mambo Jack

Wang Lee Hom - Kiss Goodbye

The Arrogant Worms - Lonely Lab of Broken Hearts

Alak - Zelda's Lullaby

Alak - Minuet of Forest

Tsunami Bomb - The Invasion From Within

Blink 182 - I Wanna Fuck a Dog in the Ass

Ceann na Caca - Worst Pirate

Jeff Buckley - Hallelujah

Alak - Windmill Hut

Perry Como - Papa Loves Mambo

Elliot Smith - King's Crossing

Djivan Gasparyan - A Cool Wind is Blowing

Midicronica - Star Diva

Recoil - Jezebel

Alak - Song of Time

Flogging Molly - Death Valley Queen

TISM - Everyone Else Has Had More Sex Than Me

Little Feat - Fat Man in the Bathtub

Cherry Poppin Daddies - No Mercy for the Swine

Great Big Sea - Old Black Rum

Kylie Minogue - Santa Baby

Alak - Ballad of the Wind Fish

TTC - Dancing Box (Modelselektor remix)

The Curse of Monkey Island - A Pirate I Was Meant to Be

Howard Shore - Evenstar (with Isabel Bayrakda)

J Ralph - One Million Miles Away

Sufjan Stevens - A Good Man is Hard to Find

The Arcade Fire - Black Mirror

The Decemberists - Clementine

Alak - Song of Time version 2

The Davinci Code - Poisoned Chalice

The Rolling Stones - (I Can't Get No) Satisfaction

The Barenaked Ladies - If I Had a Million Dollars

Percy Faith Orchestra - Theme From a Summer Place

Rocky Horror Picture Show - Touch-a Touch-a Touch Me

Woody Philips - Air (On a G String)

Alak - Intro to Wind Waker

Samurai Champloo - Aruarian Dance

Regina Spektor - Apres Moi

Okay, I am stopping at 10. Apres Moi for now.

I ain't no military man

2009-10-02T15:57:13Z

Well, Bobby totally bombed is practice ASFAB for the military. You need a 50 to pass, and he got a 28. Boy's just not that academic. He wrote down a math problem for me ((3-2)5x8.25) because he couldn't solve it, but I showed him how. He doesn't... he doesn't have any self-confidence. He's afraid of studying, because he doesn't want to fail and look stupid.

I feel bad for him. I guess I can't be angry for lettng him convince me into this stupid fake marriage thing before he was even accepted. And now if he's not, we're double fucked.

Sorry I haven't been commenting on posts a lot. I'm a little busy.

panksters @ 2009-09-17T10:53:00

2009-09-17T14:54:44Z

I STARTED READING NARUTO AGAIN. I KNOW, I KNOW. I have no idea what the fuck is going on, besides the obv Sasuke is a bad guy, BUT I DON'T EVEN CARE.

LOL moment: When the series first started, it was about escaping fate and making something of yourself against all odds. It is now about how people are fated to do things, and will do them no matter what.

NEW COMICS NO, NOT STEPHANIE BROWN AGAIN

2009-09-16T22:02:26Z

Batman and Robin #4: JASON TODD. I am so happy that Grant Morrison decided to keep the Todd around for a villain, because he really makes a great one (sometimes). His first run as the Red Hood was le awesome king, so this pleases me already. Also, his crazy bitch friend is crazy. I absolutely adore the way Morrison writes Jason, with his silly hip lingo and excitement about justice and shiot. And lol @ them using Twitter when they destroy bad guys.

Green Arrow Black Canary #24: I love that crazy redhead who wants to bone Green Arrow. AND EFF YEAH SPEEDY SAVES THE DAY. Damn, gurl, all the ladies in this series so fine. For real though, everything in this comic is great.

Batgirl #2: IF I HAD KNOWN BATGIRL WAS ABOUT STEPHANIE BROWN, I WOULD NOT HAVE PURCHASED IT. I WILL POINTEDLY REFUSE TO PURCHASE IT FROM NOW ON, AS IF I HAVEN'T RANTED ABOUT HOW MUCH I HATE THAT CHARACTER ENOUGN ALREADY. BUT STILL: I HATE THIS CHARACTER. I MUST TYPE IN ALL CAPS TO EXPRESS MY RAGE AT HER BEING BATGIRL. AND I KNOW THE SERIES WILL END WITH BABS GIVING HER A BIG OL' STAMP OF APROVAL AND A HUG OR SOME SHIT which just makes me angrier. The only highlight of Mizz Brwon being Batgirl is that Cassandra Cain is NOT Batgirl. But you know what? Hollow victory. At least they had the decency to never put Cass in anything and ignore her, anyway.

Blackest night #3: SO GOOD. Oh god, Ray Palmer, who I suddenly care about after basically ignoring forever. The Indigo Lanterns are hardcore brah, and WHO CALLED WHITE LANTERN HAL JORDAN? WHY IT WAS ME and like everyone else in the world lol. Anyway, good shit. I teared up when the smart ha;f of Firestorm turned into salt.

Deadpool: Merc With a Mouth #3: lol jokes

THAT'S ALL FOR NOW, except Tiny Titans, which amounts to "lol cute".

panksters @ 2009-09-14T18:41:00

2009-09-14T22:42:51Z

A Seth Green clone asked me out for a drink today. God I must be hot.

EDIT: Hotter than real Seth Green though lol

NEW COMICS~

2009-09-11T16:27:04Z

Blackest Night #2: AQUAMAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAN. I like how they're killing off a bunch of people that nobody minds dying. Aqualad, you're okay, but sorry. I do feel a little bad for the Atom though. His teary-eyed phone call MAY have choked me up a little bit. Oo, and this issue has Zatanna.

Deadpool: Suicide Kings #5: Spider-man makes a joke about his web looking like jizz on someone's face. The two little fellas team up to stop some douche from being douchebaggy, and Deadpool gets laid in the end! For some reason, that was a legit "awwww" moment. Oh well, that's the end of this series anyway.

Models Inc #1: I only bought this because Tim Gunn was on the cover. He also got to wear the Iron Man costume in a little special at the back, and was all I CAN MAKE IT WORK which was amaaaaaaaazing, if you're into Tim Gunn (which I am). Unfortunately, the rest of the comic is super retarded.

Booster Gold #24: Booster, Rip, and Raven are still teamed up in an alternate future, trying to keep Deathstroke's son from killing Robin in the past so Trigon could rule in the future. Zatanna and Kyle Rayner are married, which.... I mean... I love that. I just love it. Anyway, Admiral Akbar came by to alert them of the trap and/or tarp, Boostah and pals save the daaaaaaaaaaay! Unfortunately, now Jaime has to deal with the wrath of the Black Beetle.

OH SHIT, and Ollie Queen was leading the rebellion. God I love Ollie. EVERY TIME. HE'S SUCH A CHAMP.

MILAGRO WILL BE SUPER IMPORTANT TO THE WORLD? YES. YES SHE HAD BETTER BE. I love tiny Milagro.

Green Lantern Corps #40: SALAAK LAID DOWN THE LAW. UNNNNNNNNNNF god that was amazing. I actually did a big audible YEAHUH when I read that BECAUSE IT WAS AMAZING. Also lol Guy Gardner is like a third in charge of the entire Corps hahaha. Guy can do it. EXCEPT HE GOT STABBED IN THE LEG. THAT BLEW ASS. He'll live though, because otherwise I will despair. Salaak will save you with his mighty computer, Guy! Anyway, Soranik, Iolande, and Arisia are bosses. SUCK IT OTHER COMIC BOOK HEROINES.

Deadpool #15: A surprisingly serious, angsty issue. Deadpool in a tiny purple roller skating suit pretending to be gay. It's funny how that counts as serious. Anyway, it was still really good. I kind of Hope Deadpool does join the X Men, even though I dislike them and their series.

YOUNG AVENGERS 4/5: I didn't even know they made this, but I like it. I don't know who ANYBODY is, and two of the new kids have the same haircut, earrings, jacket, and face. The only difference is that one of them wears a Spidey shirt. I don't really know what's going on at all, but I like Wiccan a lot, so it's aiight.

AND THAT IS IT.

TINY COMICS SKETCH DUMP

2009-09-10T18:49:04Z

BRB GOING TO GET MY COMIC GOODIES

panksters @ 2009-09-02T15:17:00

2009-09-02T19:27:04Z

Okay, so anyone who knows me knows that I LOVE seeing new people getting into comics. I love comics, and I love talking to people about comics. I love showing people comics they haven't read, discussing story arcs, heroes, villains, etc. It's absolutely my favorite thing.

So permit me to be annoyed JUST THIS ONCE at newbie comic fans.

By now, everyone knows that Disney bought Marvel. A young lady I was arguing with was so concerned that Disney would ruin "her Iron Man", that it would never be the same and she'd, I dunno, have a heart attack or something. After a bit of pressing, she admitted that she actually didn't read Iron Man, or any comics. She just really liked the movies.

OH. SO IT WOULDN'T REALLY FUCKING AFFECT YOU AT ALL, WOULD IT? Christ. I know being into western comics is nerd chic right now, but it's a little ridiculous to have legit comic posers AS MUCH AS I HATE EVEN THINKING ABOUT THAT WORD. Why would you bother pretending you read them, when you could ACTUALLY read them? I-I don't understand. Don't act all fake mad because you think it makes you look nerd smart :(

Side note: People who are still running around going WATCHMEN IS THE PINNACLE OF AMAZING, REALLY TOUCHES ON ISSUES, DID YOU SEE RORSCHACH?!?!???? Welcome to 20 years ago. Hey, I get excited when I read old stuff that's new to me too, but you have to understand that it's NOT new. Just because it was interesting for it's time doesn't mean it's STILL interesting now. That idea has been played and played and played in fiction for EVER, and here's a secret: Alan Moore didn't do it best. For the love of God, stop parading it around like the new hip craze. IT'S OVER TWENTY YEARS OLD. I'M SORRY YOU MISSED THE BOAT BUT ENOUGH IS ENOUGH. It's like suddenly getting into jeans and walking around going WOO. LOOK AT ME, I'M WEARING THESE NEW TYPE OF SLACKS CALLED JEANS. THEY'RE DURABLE AND TOUGH. LOOK HOW MANY STYLES. THIS ONE IS CALLED BOOTCUT. GO LEVIS WOOOOOO!

Anyway. Back to my usual nerd loving ways. Off to the comic shop to drool with my pals.

Bobby has weird friends

2009-09-01T03:45:22Z

"Oh, me and Brianne split"
"What about the baby?"
"Oh. Miscarriage."
"That's awesome"
"I know dude, I partied my ass of. Huge weight off my shoulders."

I think the shallow hipster wench didn't eat to keep herself from getting fat. Bobby thinks his pal falcon punched her down some stairs.

panksters @ 2009-08-31T19:12:00

2009-08-31T23:14:42Z

panksters @ 2009-08-31T14:44:00

2009-08-31T18:45:43Z

"I am at peace"

Peacemakers are receptive, good-natured, and supportive. They seek union with others and the world around them.

How to Get Along with Me

• If you want me to do something, how you ask is important. I especially don't like expectations or pressure.

• I like to listen and to be of service, but don't take advantage of this.

• Listen until I finish speaking, even though I meander a bit.

• Give me time to finish things and make decisions. It's OK to nudge me gently and nonjudgmentally.

• Ask me questions to help me get clear.

• Tell me when you like how I look. I'm not averse to flattery.

• Hug me, show physical affection. It opens me up to my feelings.

• I like a good discussion but not a confrontation.

• Let me know you like what I've done or said.

• Laugh with me and share in my enjoyment of life.

What I Like About Being a NINE

• being nonjudgmental and accepting

• caring for and being concerned about others

• being able to relax and have a good time

• knowing that most people enjoy my company; I'm easy to be around

• my ability to see many different sides of an issue and to be a good mediator and facilitator

• my heightened awareness of sensations, aesthetics, and the here and now

• being able to go with the flow and feel one with the universe

What's Hard About Being a NINE

• being judged and misunderstood for being placid and/or indecisive

• being critical of myself for lacking initiative and discipline

• being too sensitive to criticism; taking every raised eyebrow and twitch of the mouth personally

• being confused about what I really want

• caring too much about what others will think of me

• not being listened to or taken seriously

NINEs as Children Often

• feel ignored and that their wants, opinions, and feelings are unimportant

• tune out a lot, especially when others argue

• are "good" children: deny anger or keep it to themselves

NINEs as Parents

• are supportive, kind, and warm

• are sometimes overly permissive or nondirective

IT'S TRUE. Sort of. I do take lots of crit personally and shiiiiiiiiiiit but whatever.

Comics!

2009-08-27T16:23:03Z

Green Lantern 45: I AM EXCITE ABOUT THESE BLACK LANTERNS. STILL. Don't care about Star Sapphires though, and the Carol loving Hal bit is just... whatever. Are there any dude Sapphires? :(

Batman and Robin 3: UHHHHH GRANT MORRISON. YOU A WEIRD DUDE. Still a good series, just weird as hail. Pyg was just... just... Grant Morrison. Have you been doing drugs again?

Gotham City Sirens 3: Guess who doesn't care about the Riddler?

Blackest Night Titans: I really like how the old Dove couldn't be resurrected by the black rings, but on the other hand, I don't care about the Titans at all.

Batman: The Widening Gyre by Kevin Smith: What a pile. Ivy's a whore, Joker's a (well) joke, Batman's a retard, and the plot sucks. Glad to see you got over your last Batman failure, Kev. Sigh.

Deadpool 14: Some pie-rat shit. MERC WITH A MOUTH IS BETTER. WHY ARE THERE SO MANY DEADPOOL TITLES? Oh, because I will buy them. Sigh.

Detective Comics 856: I still like Detective Comics, and I'm still surprised that I give fuck all about Batwoman. And then there were some werewolves and shit, with some tentacle monster or something. This series is kind of hard to follow if you haven't read Crime Bible, which I thought was too boring to finish :(